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I’m a bad mom!Β 

As much as I love my kids, I love them too. After about 10-15 hours with my children everyday, cleaning the house, cooking, chauffeur-ing, taking care of business. I’d love to have time watching Grey’s Anatomy just for 2 episodes (2 hours out of hundreds hours I spend with the kids) once a week. 

What is so wrong in having a time, watching my favorite TV show? Can I skip just one night sending the kids to bed, just a good night kiss instead of spending 20-30 minutes reading Bible, looking for mosquitoes, telling stories, and other before bed routines? 

Would I be a bad mother for choosing Grey’s Anatomy over my kids for 2 hours? 

Would I be a bad mother wanting a time to watch TV? 

Would I? 

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Faithful In The Process

Starting a blank page at the church while waiting for Abe on his worshipper class. 

Monday the kids are going back to school, meaning I’ll be busy hustling around, busting my ass, trying to do everything in such little amount of time. 

Between house chores, cooking, VA works, online shop, blogging, school, music class, tutor class, extracurricular, for both kids 😌 

Desperately need to plan my days or I’ll be running around like a chicken without its head 😨 I sure don’t wanna loose my head 😜 

Sometimes I just wanted to go back working, leave everything taken care by a helper like the way it used to be, less headache for me, and we really need the extra income. 

But I really don’t have the heart to do it. So many many times I go back and forth about it. 

The Bible said, we must listen to our inner ear, coz God speaks to it. Follow your heart, we say. 

So I’ll just play along with life, with what God plans for me, coz sure His plans are far way better for me πŸ™ 

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Thrifting – Clean With Me – Kitchen Aid Toaster

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A week ago I thrift a toaster. I’ve been wanting a toaster for a very long time. I love butter toast. With a lot of butter. Yum πŸ˜‹

So I bought this toaster from my cousin. In this condition πŸ˜…

Such a dishonor to the toaster right πŸ˜‚ I am determined to clean it as if it’s new. I used vacuum and butter brush to clean the burner. And I used damp cloth with baking soda to clean the grease. Then I finished with cleaning all the surface with my vinegar water spray.

The finish product…

Shine and clean as new 😍

You don’t have to spend a lot to get what you need. Thrifting can save you tons of money. Make sure that its in a good condition and works (for electrical products). Clean them thoroughly, make them shine as new, you wouldn’t even remember that you thrift 😍

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Am I poor?

We were Bible reading one night and I told my kids that we should be always grateful for whatever we have now. 

I mentioned everything we have. Health, house, car, TVs (we have more than 1 TV), fridge, electric drum, keyboard, etc. I usually ask them to say 10 things they’re grateful for that day. 

It’s not as easy as it seems to mention 10 things everyday. Especially when you have a routine days. Nothing’s special to remember. Everyday just doing the same things make us ‘numb’. 

It’ll be easy when they’re at school. They usually mentioned about the teacher, friends, exam results, homework, or any other school related. But when it come to summer, no school day for more than 2 months, they lost words. 

At first, they mentioned about being able to play games everyday. It’s special for them, coz on school days, they can only play on weekends. But then they get tired of mentioning the same thing over and over again. 

One night, Al was mentioning his gratitude… “I am grateful for our house. We have a big house. But my fridge is empty”. 

I was a bit sad that he could think that way. After we all mentioned our gratitude, I talk to them about Al’s gratitude. I asked him, the reason he said like that. Even though it is not a figure of speech. We literally have no food in the fridge. Still, I need to know what’s in my son’s little brain yet not small minded at all. 

He asked me back, “Are we poor mom?”. Hmmm πŸ€” Are we? If I open the fridge, I could say we have not enough money to fill the fridge with weeks of food and snacks. But because of that, can I say that we’re poor? 

I don’t post a vacation nor a fancy eating out on social media, coz we don’t have enough money to vacationing nor eating out in a fancy restaurant. I don’t post any expensive gifts to our friends or family. Can I say that we’re poor? 

I’m a stay at home mom that has her planner full of cleaning schedule and organization home projects. Nothing’s fancy about that. I post frugal lifestyle, frugal haul, frugal diy, and everything else frugally. Can I say that we’re poor? 

Well… I’m a frugal in nature. But life had us stuck in a non frugal lifestyle. Thinking that eating out everyday was A Okay. Thinking that buying expensive gifts was a must in order to satisfied that person. Thinking that living frugally is the same as poor, and you’ll feel ashamed of people knowing​ that you’re poor. 

Being poor is a curse. When you’re poor, you’ll have no friends. No family will want to hang out with you. Then you’ll start living a lie. Hoping that if you’re not frugal, people would think that you’re not poor. You start living the life of a ‘rich’ people. 

Can I say that we’re poor? 

Well… I don’t really care what you think. I don’t live for you. I don’t ask free money from you. I will find another friend that will support me even if I’m ‘poor’. If you think that me living frugally means​ that I’m poor. Then you can say that I’m poor. And if you don’t wanna hangout​ with poor people like me, I’m A Okay with that πŸ‘Œ 

We bring our own food, we don’t eat out expensive way, we thrift, we (sometimes) don’t have food in the fridge, we don’t stock up on snacks, we save gas, we stay at home most of the summer. Can I say that we’re poor? 

No! We are the children of God. God Almighty, who controls the universe, who provides, who anointed us with poor proof. I am never be poor. My God provides, each day, without fail. 

“Give us this day, our daily bread”. THIS DAY. OUR DAILY BREAD. Jesus teach us to be humble. To be grateful for what you have TODAY. Coz tomorrow has its own trouble. 

Live in the moment. Live in a grateful lifestyle, when being poor is not​ your destiny that God has settled for you. 

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No Shame!

My Bible journaling is not perfect. I skipped days. As you can see, it’s been almost a month since my last journal. 

I started late and I skip days. I should’ve been ashamed to show you this, coz it’s showing my imperfections, my flaws. As most people do in social media, I should just posting good images and perfect performances of my life. 

But life is way near perfect. We have mistakes, flaws, bad days, rough times, and other awful things. Life is not about us dragged along those things, weighing our journey, walking limbs, thinking that it’s too late. 

No! Life is a matter of us getting back on track, leaving the mistakes behind, learn to be better, seek for a way that’ll bring us to our destination. It’s never too late! 

Your flaws shouldn’t stop you from what God has been destined you for. As long as you put down your pride, on your knees, asking for God’s wisdom, letting God be your potter and shape you. 

Your ego won’t save you from shame, it only covers the flaws and piles them till you can’t even see your true self. Blocking your path. It’s okay to have flaws, making mistakes, having imperfections. 

Know that you’re anointed, start again, move forward! 

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Surviving Summer

Finally got the kid’s​ summer chores and routines done! 

School holiday is not my favorite​ 😰 Aside from having the house cluttered with toys and dirty dishes all day, I also need to keep them bored free and that’s a real challenge with kids since they’re tired proof creatures 😨 

Might as well add their daily chores during holiday πŸ˜…

Kid’s summer schedule 😎 My kids needs schedule or they’ll be playing games non-stop 😧 Some people might think that I’m raising military children, well I have my way of raising my kids and that’s with schedule, it works for them. 

I’ve seen people with no life discipline, they’ve become less responsible and lack of empathy. With schedule, kids will learn that time is precious, they need to spend their time wisely and useful for them and society. 

My kids or maybe most of the kids, needs guidance of what they should do. When they wake up in the morning, they tend to start playing with their gadgets or watching TV or they’ll be a nagging complaining children screaming that they’re bored all summer 😣 Coz that’s what the children’s​ mindset of happiness nowadays, gadgets and online games unless we guide them (tell them what to do) πŸ˜ͺ 

I’m raising a responsible unselfish children, pray to God πŸ™ They need to understand that life isn’t going to wait for their unconscious lazy bum, thinking that life is going to adapt to their way of living, not caring about others in their circle of life. 

School holiday is definitely not my favorite, it’s theirs, but we’ll gonna make it work and have a peaceful fun holiday πŸ˜‰ 

What’s your stress free summer tips? Love to hear from you πŸ˜‰

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Impression Of A Broken World

Manchester to Jakarta.

Tragedy.

At any number of victims, a kid lost their parent, a mother lost their children, a couple lost their spouse, people are losing. Who’s winning?

Is it supposed to be a game?

A challenge we often found on net?

A bomb tag?

What is wrong with this world?

Too many broken people taking revenge for their broken life. On whose account?

Do humanity still exist?

Are we still human?

I feel sick!

We are excessively revealing ourselves and exposing our vulnerability, easily taken by fake intentions.

Our pureness are no longer simulated by gratefulness.

Do we ever recognized ourselves among these chaotic world full of shattered souls wondering around with troubled intellectuals?Β Who are we?

WeΒ should go back to our core of life. The essence of living. The wisdom of love. The greatest among all greatness. Who are we?

We take such a presumption on how majestic we are. Who are we?

Recognizing oneself and experiencing spiritual form of love is essential.

Find the true love of ALL love and you will discover the purpose of your existence.

Should others take responsibilities for our fragmented self?

I feel sick!

 

 

 

 

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Graduation Series – Book Cleaning & PurgeΒ 

Abe is now going to Primary School, so he definitely doesn’t need those books and papers anymore. 

It’s time to clean up and purge. Come along with me πŸ€“ 

I’m gonna check on notebooks that can be reuse, books that are going to be handed down to Al, some crafts to keep in the kid’s memorabilia box, and books to donate.

The chaos…

These are the books to keep for Al.

These are the Abe’s tests from grade 4-6.

I’m gonna keep it for Al. I put it in a bag so it won’t get dusty.

These are the notebooks.

I sure not buying anymore notebooks. I’m gonna buy some plastic cover for it and the kids are gonna reuse it. I cut all the written pages, so it’s clean to reuse. 

Donating these. I’m gonna give some preschool and kindergarten books to my niece.

These are the clean pages I cut from books.

I’m gonna use it for my binders or clip them for the kid’s notes. Certainly not wasting anything πŸ‘

These are trash.

The end product.

For now, I’m gonna leave it like that. Waiting for Al to finish his final exams, so I can get to a thorough cleaning up. 

That’s it for now. I will come back with the next cleaning and purging Al’s books. And will definitely take you to join my back to school preparation. 

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38

Today is the day I turn 38.

38 years of ups and downs.

38 years of good and bad.

38 years of routines.

38 years of God working on me. 

God is the potter and I am His clay.

For 38 years, God spins me over and over and over. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed. I want to get out of the wheel. I feel that I’m spinning without seeing any changes. Sometimes I questioned God. He knows what I’m going through. Moving in circles. Instead of getting any good changes, I feel dizzy and lightheaded. It happens when I got my vertigo. The world is spinning, but I don’t get to go anywhere, couldn’t even stand up without throwing up. 

What is happening? Why am I not chosen to be blessed? Am I not worthed? I bombarded Him with my unsatisfactory questions. 

For 38 years, I am hot and cold. Worshipping God for His greatness. Other times I blame Him. There are times I faithfully went to church. Other times, I stayed home on Sundays, thinking that it’s pointless, going to church. 

In 38 years of my life, I am what I am. God doesn’t change one situation, not because He doesn’t want to, but because He’s changing me. To prepare me for what’s coming. To mold me to fit into the blessing He has prepared for me. 

In 38 years of my life, I have become a responsible mother. Doing all these motherhood routines. Checking off my to do list. Working my ass off. Unnoticed for now. But my boys are taking in my routines, seeing what I’m doing in their life, in front of their eyes. Molding them to be a responsible man. 

In 38 years of my life, I am normal. Normally follows what I thought was the right ways. Normal to swipe the credit card to get what I want. Normal to spend unwisely. Normal to be financially irresponsible. But I learned that I was following the wrong examples. I am now seeing people being responsible with their money. Not that they don’t have the money to spend, but their being responsible. 

I’m mature enough to decide what I want to see. They have money, but they go back home after errands to have their lunch instead of eating out. They have money, but they thrift shopping. They have money, but they don’t go to the theater every week. They have money, but they’re​ budgeting and stick to it. They have money, but they don’t treat their children like the owner of the world. 

In 38 years of my life, I am the clay of God’s pottery. I’m gonna trust Him to make me be what He has planned for me to be. I will be faithfully stay in my spinning wheel. Preparing myself for what’s coming. Thanking Him all the way. 

I was blessed before. I am blessed now. I will be blessed. I will be faithful in my routines for another 38 years and more. I don’t work under people. I work under Almighty God. 

Happy 38th to me! πŸŽ‚ 

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DITL #22 May 2017 – Off to Jakarta

Monday, 22 May 2017

9.38am just got on the bus. On the way to Kelapa Gading. Waited for an hour 😰 It’s my 1st bus ride after 3 years πŸ˜€ 

11.41am arrived at Artha Gading Mall, straight to SAMSAT to take care of my MIO’s tax. Gosh… It was a bad traffic 😭 I have headache, just took my pain killer πŸ€•

Queueing 😰

2.22pm on the bus, back home. Thanks Lord, I just have to wait 20 minutes for the bus πŸ˜‡ 

3.35pm arrived at school. Waiting for Abe. 

4.20pm change of plan. Took me 20 minutes to went home by foot 😁 Reached home, toilet, grab the car keys, off to church. Hubby will pickup Abe πŸ‘Œ

4.50pm arrived at church for Al’s keyboard class.

1st keyboard class. I unofficially join the class 😁. May God bless us with keyboard so we can practice at home πŸ™ 

9.18pm on the bed. Exhausted 😰 Need to recharge so tomorrow I can have energy to play catch up. Sunday and Monday, no housework. A lot of catching up tomorrow πŸ€”