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The Struggle 

Sometimes writing can be a struggle even if you love to write. I plan to write everyday, thinking that if I commit, I’ll be a good writer/blogger. But things happen. 

Me as a sahm/wahm, life can be a rollercoaster. Plus as a normal human being, I have problems, and that can be an inspiration or a disaster 😁 

One week, I wrote nothing for days, then I wrote 4 blogs in a day. I wasn’t thinking of scheduling those blogs, I just post all in 1 day. Then when I have the time to sit quitely in my computer, focusing only to my blog, I noticed it’s a ‘mistake’. 

If I post all 4 blogs in 1 day, only 1 blog would be noticeable, and I have inconsistent archive shown in my website. So, I went to my insight, look at the graphics, took notes on the most popular hours of my viewers, and start rescheduling my blogs. 

I now schedule my post on the same time (around a specific time) everyday. So now I don’t have to worry about posting a blog every single day, coz I already have blogs scheduled for the next few days. 

I can spend more time with my kids and focusing on other things. If you love to write and having the same struggle with me, it’s fine, we’re all struggling. 

Don’t stop writing, just move on, write whenever you have the inspiration, save it, schedule it, enjoy your life 😘

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You vs Life

Your life is how you manage everything. Life can be a bitch and only you can get to live the life you want. To handle the bitch or to hang around with the bitch. Your choice. 

You want to be successful. Then life shouldn’t be just sitting around, idling, chatting, watching TV all day, playing games, sleeping when everybody else are busting their assess, or other nonsense that can’t get you any near successful. 

You want to be a good parent. Then life shouldn’t be giving bad examples, being ignorant to what’s been going on with the kids, bad mouthing, mentally and physically abuse. 

You want to be respected. Then life shouldn’t be disrespectfully others, do whatever you please without considering others, underestimating, underappreciate, and belittling others. 

You want to be financially secure. Then life shouldn’t be splurging, buy unimportant things, buy expensive things, not saving, using water and electricity irresponsibly, don’t calculate, too proud to thrift.

You want to live peacefully in a beautiful, clean, organize house. Then life shouldn’t be cluttering, don’t put anything back to where it belongs, recklessly trashing, throwing everything to wherever you like and hoping magically the house appears nice, clean, and organize even though you’re being irresponsibly sloppy. 

You want to be loved. Then life shouldn’t be hurtful words, disrespectful, ignorance, bossy, underestimate, underappreciate, narcissistic, loveless. 

What you want to be must get along with how you live your life. It has to be in the same path. It has to walk together. Hand in hand.

How you live your life always gets back to you. Do good and you’ll live good. Do bad and you’ll live badly. This is how the universe works. 

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Be Careful Of This Word

You’ll never know what you put yourself into. It’s a strong word. Only for the strong. 

Life is about commitment. Some people struggle with it. Some people enjoy it. Some people lost in it. 

How about you?

Commitment goes along way with responsibilities. When you commit, you’re responsible. No wonder some people run away from it. Some can’t even wait to be committed then painfully regret it. Some commit and don’t care, what a jerk. 

To commit means to put yourself all out there. To be present. To care. To stay. To love. To put it first than yourself. To give all of you. Maybe not all, but most you for something/someone other than you. 

It’s a scary word for the weak. 

It’s not for cowards. 

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How To Stay Away From Negativity

I was showing a person a video about a DIY home project. It was pretty easy, doable, cheap, and we have most of the materials on hand. I was pretty excited. Then that person made a comment, “Of course it turned out good, they used ‘that’!”. I was stunned at how shallow that person’s mind was. How negative! ‘That’ thing was a tiny little thing compare to the whole idea. We could do the project even without ‘that’.

That comment is a negative highlight of that person’s personality. Or… An inferiority. Either way, it’s negative. A negative person will always try to find anything to talk themselves out of something. They will find themselves incapable of doing anything they don’t want (avoid) to do.

Here are some of the things I do to avoid myself from negativity:

  1. Turn an obstacle into a challenge. Whenever I find myself trapped in a difficult situation, I challenge myself to get out of there. I can be very persistent. I will try to turn things around in my head, make a plan (most of the time, I don’t even have any plan), take action. That’s why I do a lot of ‘first’. I will go with my guts and all I have, to make myself out of difficulties. It’s not a matter of a good brain, it’s a matter of willingness. I’m a strong believer that anything can be learned, as long as you have the willingness to learn.
  2. Don’t set NO as a default answer. I have a hard time saying no as an answer. I know sometimes it will disadvantage me, but it’s necessary when I need something to work out. I had my first job at a bank coz I said YES. I had my first job as a Sales & Marketing coz I said YES. Then it led me to my first job at a 5* hotel coz I said YES. I had my first job as a Secretary coz I said YES. I had my first client as a Virtual Assistant coz I said YES. I did my first website designing coz I said YES. I did my first writing contribution coz I said YES. I had a lot of ‘first’, as I mentioned. I don’t let my limitations determine my destiny.
  3. Achievement recognition. It is okay to tell your story. It is okay to recognize your achievements. It is okay to share your success. As long as you’re using it to boost your confident, not to put others down. You need to remind yourself that you CAN do it. Never talk yourself down. There’s nothing you can not do. You have been doing great and you will do more greatness.
  4. Shut up! If you can’t say any good things, you better shut your mouth. What’s worst in negativity other than to hurt others by your words? Being critical is important, but being nice is crucial. You can’t get any positive outcome from a negative mouth. An adult controls their mouth.
  5. Turn off bad news. Watch what you bring into your mind. Stay away from bad news. This world is already broken, you can’t fix it and make the world a better place if you yourself is broken. Heal yourself then heal others. Read motivational books, listen to sermons (if you’re a religion person), watch inspirational movies, find success stories, etc. Bring in positivism to your mind so you will have positive outcome.
  6. Don’t assume. Stop being such a mind reader. You don’t know everything. You don’t know someone’s story. You don’t live their life. When someone want to visit you, don’t assume that they wanted something from you. Maybe they just want to connect. When some family offer you an opportunity, don’t assume that they’re trying to step on your ego. You would’ve missed your lifetime success if you reject the offer over some pride. When some friends ask you to dinner, don’t assume that they just want you to take the bill. Maybe they just want to hang out with you, to know you better, to be your friend, so your not so lonely.
  7. Set reasonable goals. Goals are important. You can’t live your life like a mindless zombie. Waking up in the morning not knowing what to do coz you don’t have a goal. You need to set a purpose, make a plan. What are the things you’re trying to achieve? Nothing is impossible, yet you need to be reasonable. Once you set your goals too high, when you don’t get the result you wanted, you can get discouraged, and it will set you down. If it’s reasonable, most likely you will success. You will have more confident to set another goal. Do it slowly, take baby steps, learn as much as you can.
  8. Let go! People can hurt us. People can cheat on us. People can be evil. It’s not something you can fix. It’s not your job to punish them. It’s useless to dwell on it. If you keep carrying the pain, it will burden your steps, you will be walking limbs, take you slower to your destination. Your mind will start taking unnecessary precautions. Stopping you from moving forward, too afraid you’ll get hurt again, always see the bad side of everybody. All you can do is learn from it, let go, move forward.
  9. You’re not God. You’re imperfect. You have flaws. Take it easy with your mind. Don’t let it go wild. Always see the brighter side of everything. Start taking notes of your gratitude. Don’t praise yourself too high that you can’t see other’s goodness.
  10. God owns everything. No matter what you have or don’t have, it all belongs to God. God can give you everything, yet He can take everything. Stay humble. Keep honoring God.

I see negative people live in such a tiring life. Always burden their mind with ‘what if’. Taking unnecessary precautions. Giving unimportant comments. Sabotaging their mind. Take off all of your pride, learn from others, listens, and I promise you will have a peaceful life.

 

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Turning Point

I’m not in a state to tell you don’t and do thingy. It’s just something I do and think on how to turn my life from having the victim mentality into someone who wanted to put a stop to a disadvantage in life. 

I used to be someone who looked at everything at its worst and I dwell on it, thinking heavily about it, stressing over it, being a paranoid, afraid of being hurt, and I stayed in that point for a very long time. 

I used to be someone who made a mistake and thinking that it was my turning point. That I destined to be like that. That it was my fate. Live in the mistake. There’s no point in fixing me. I was already broken. 

I was in the victim mentality. 

Then I got older, wiser, and I see clearer. I put a stop to it. All those victim things didn’t make me a better person. Instead, I was living a life that’s full of negativity and ungratefulness. Everything seemed to be setting me up as a victim with zero chance of winning. 

I put a stop at my bad habits. I put a stop at my stubbornness. I put a stop at my cockiness. I humble myself to learn from others. I try to keep doing my best even if I don’t get recognized. I control myself. I’m adulting every single day. 

Yes, I do sometimes disappointed by the lack of recognition of all the hard work I do. I got anxious when I’m not being noticed. I got upset when I feel that I’m alone in this. I feel that I’m empty in this fullness. 

Yes, I got overwhelmed by all the mess in my life. Trying to do everything in my limitations. Fighting for everything that needed to be fixed in this jungle of uncertainty. Facing my biggest enemy yet a huge deal to face with. 

Trying to be understood by not sending the wrong message of war. Keeping the peace is always the hardest thing to do. I’m always standing on a thin ice who could’ve break at a tiny single move. 

All of those things are jumbling inside my head. My heart gets easily broken. I’m fixing myself at every moment of my life. I want to be better. I refuse to be someone who I hated so much. I’m not gonna get comfortable to my disadvantages. I’m not gonna be a victim. I will work hard to achieve what I deserve. I’m not giving up to laziness. Certainly not surrendering to any addictions, who would eat me alive and make me a useless person. 

I’m gonna be the role model for my children. They’ll know how to live their life at their best. Honoring God and receiving their blessings. 

How you start is not important. How you finish is all that matters. 

It is not how live in the past. It’s how you live in the present.

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Am I poor?

We were Bible reading one night and I told my kids that we should be always grateful for whatever we have now. 

I mentioned everything we have. Health, house, car, TVs (we have more than 1 TV), fridge, electric drum, keyboard, etc. I usually ask them to say 10 things they’re grateful for that day. 

It’s not as easy as it seems to mention 10 things everyday. Especially when you have a routine days. Nothing’s special to remember. Everyday just doing the same things make us ‘numb’. 

It’ll be easy when they’re at school. They usually mentioned about the teacher, friends, exam results, homework, or any other school related. But when it come to summer, no school day for more than 2 months, they lost words. 

At first, they mentioned about being able to play games everyday. It’s special for them, coz on school days, they can only play on weekends. But then they get tired of mentioning the same thing over and over again. 

One night, Al was mentioning his gratitude… “I am grateful for our house. We have a big house. But my fridge is empty”. 

I was a bit sad that he could think that way. After we all mentioned our gratitude, I talk to them about Al’s gratitude. I asked him, the reason he said like that. Even though it is not a figure of speech. We literally have no food in the fridge. Still, I need to know what’s in my son’s little brain yet not small minded at all. 

He asked me back, “Are we poor mom?”. Hmmm 🤔 Are we? If I open the fridge, I could say we have not enough money to fill the fridge with weeks of food and snacks. But because of that, can I say that we’re poor? 

I don’t post a vacation nor a fancy eating out on social media, coz we don’t have enough money to vacationing nor eating out in a fancy restaurant. I don’t post any expensive gifts to our friends or family. Can I say that we’re poor? 

I’m a stay at home mom that has her planner full of cleaning schedule and organization home projects. Nothing’s fancy about that. I post frugal lifestyle, frugal haul, frugal diy, and everything else frugally. Can I say that we’re poor? 

Well… I’m a frugal in nature. But life had us stuck in a non frugal lifestyle. Thinking that eating out everyday was A Okay. Thinking that buying expensive gifts was a must in order to satisfied that person. Thinking that living frugally is the same as poor, and you’ll feel ashamed of people knowing​ that you’re poor. 

Being poor is a curse. When you’re poor, you’ll have no friends. No family will want to hang out with you. Then you’ll start living a lie. Hoping that if you’re not frugal, people would think that you’re not poor. You start living the life of a ‘rich’ people. 

Can I say that we’re poor? 

Well… I don’t really care what you think. I don’t live for you. I don’t ask free money from you. I will find another friend that will support me even if I’m ‘poor’. If you think that me living frugally means​ that I’m poor. Then you can say that I’m poor. And if you don’t wanna hangout​ with poor people like me, I’m A Okay with that 👌 

We bring our own food, we don’t eat out expensive way, we thrift, we (sometimes) don’t have food in the fridge, we don’t stock up on snacks, we save gas, we stay at home most of the summer. Can I say that we’re poor? 

No! We are the children of God. God Almighty, who controls the universe, who provides, who anointed us with poor proof. I am never be poor. My God provides, each day, without fail. 

“Give us this day, our daily bread”. THIS DAY. OUR DAILY BREAD. Jesus teach us to be humble. To be grateful for what you have TODAY. Coz tomorrow has its own trouble. 

Live in the moment. Live in a grateful lifestyle, when being poor is not​ your destiny that God has settled for you. 

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No Shame!

My Bible journaling is not perfect. I skipped days. As you can see, it’s been almost a month since my last journal. 

I started late and I skip days. I should’ve been ashamed to show you this, coz it’s showing my imperfections, my flaws. As most people do in social media, I should just posting good images and perfect performances of my life. 

But life is way near perfect. We have mistakes, flaws, bad days, rough times, and other awful things. Life is not about us dragged along those things, weighing our journey, walking limbs, thinking that it’s too late. 

No! Life is a matter of us getting back on track, leaving the mistakes behind, learn to be better, seek for a way that’ll bring us to our destination. It’s never too late! 

Your flaws shouldn’t stop you from what God has been destined you for. As long as you put down your pride, on your knees, asking for God’s wisdom, letting God be your potter and shape you. 

Your ego won’t save you from shame, it only covers the flaws and piles them till you can’t even see your true self. Blocking your path. It’s okay to have flaws, making mistakes, having imperfections. 

Know that you’re anointed, start again, move forward! 

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Reaching The Point Of Exhaustion

You know when you hit some point of your life. Whether it makes you happy or sad or furious or joy or anything called feelings. We feels. And that makes us vulnerable. 

Feeling brings us to the path of junctions. Directing us to anywhere but certainty. To go straight or left or right or stay wherever you are. Even we can choose to walk back to where we were and stay in the past. 

What is right? What is wrong? There’s no way the answer suits every soul. One can be right for someone but not for others. It might be wrong for me but not for you. There is no white and black. We live in gray world. 

I see people crying for help when the help is in front of them, but they choose not to help. I see people laughing out loud taking cover in their pain. I see people idling around, surrendering to what’s called fate. I see people fighting for zero cause, just to make them feel heroic. 

I see a lot. I feel them all. I hear so much. 

I’m exhausted. Tired of facing reality. The life where everything seems hurtfully chaotic. Where making a decision is simply not making any decision at all. My face is like being smacked by a log wherever I turned. I’m beaten. Trying to find a way out when every way is no out. 

This is where I stay in the middle of the junction. Trying to accommodate everything comes into my way. Anything at all. Surviving is definitely not a choice. It’s the path. It’s the only way of living. Until I reach the point when I can no longer feel. 

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Self-Blossom

I’m a lonely girl.

I do everything by myself. Anything. 

I’m used to being alone. 

Making my own decisions.

What I wanted to do and not do.

I become a fighter. 

I fight alone. 

I was battered and I self-healed.

I was drowned in my depression and I self-cured.

I was withered and I self-blossomed. 

I make myself discipline, driven, responsible, and way from perfect. But I’m not a child. I’m an adult who knows my boundaries, my limits, my abilities, my difficulties, my stop, and my go. 

I am who I am. I’m not someone who have to be told what to do. I know what needs to be done. I control myself. 

So, I get irritated by people who are not what they’re supposed to be. Acting like a child when they’re not. Simply taking orders. Sitting quitely waiting for a command. Doing what they WANT to do instead of what they NEED to do. A child behavior. 

Well… You’re not being fair! Am I? 

Maybe it’s their weakness! Like you have weaknesses! I do have weaknesses, but as an adult, I work on it. Trying to do better. I don’t worsen my weaknesses by doing it over and over and over and over again. Or… I will stop if you ask me to stop. Maybe, if I want to stop. A child behavior. 

You’re a narcissistic! If you put it that way. I am. Maybe because I was alone with me. Me is the shadow. Me is the image in the mirror. Me without an idol. Me is me. I know who I am. I’m an adult. Who are you? 

You and you’re confused brain. You and you’re child mentality in your age. You and you’re idle mind. You and you’re world. Maybe you’re a narcissistic too. 

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Product Review – Torabika Tora Cafe Volcano Chocomelt 

Hi… 

Welcome back 😘

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Now I’m gonna review one of my favorite topic. Coffee. 

So… I went shopping and tried to find me a new coffee. Just trying to get new taste than the one I’ve always take. I laid eyes on this… 

Eye catching right? The color is so me. Red. It’s a really good packaging design wise. So I was intrigued. I got a packet of 10. Was tempted to get more, but I’m an adult, I control myself 😁

And I was right! Yesterday I tried one and end up throwing it away in the sink. I used my coffee mug and it tasted awful. Taste like water with a hint of chocolate flavor and coffee at all 😦 

If you’re a coffee person, you’ll want some coffee in a (supposed to be) coffee pack right? And I didn’t get any from this. Like none 😕

This morning, I decided to try again. Smaller cup. Better CHOCOLATE taste and still NO COFFEE 😠 

Let see what’s in it as they say was in 😒

0.38% of coffee and 8.5% chocolate… Yet they said “instant coffee with chocolate” 😒

When you said coffee with chocolate, it should means a coffee based with a bit of chocolate. The coffee should’ve been the dominant here. Not the chocolate. 

Unless it said, chocolate with coffee. The chocolate is the dominant. I make sense right? But I guess I should’ve read the ingredients more careful 🙄 

It’s a no no from me. Yet I’m not gonna waste. I’m gonna keep them for company. Not gonna give my kids, coz still it has a hint of coffee in it (says them) 😪 

If you don’t drink coffee but wanted a hot drink, it should do. It has a nice chocolate flavor, though the ‘real’ chocolate drink would do a better job.