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DAY 2 – Food Budget Challengeย 

DAY 2 – 13 November 2017

It is now day 2 and I’m shopping. I went to wet market to buy my fish and chicken. 

3kg of chicken for IDR98K – $7.23 and 3 kg of fish for IDR78K – $5.75

Not gonna show you what’s inside though. They’re pretty gross ๐Ÿ˜ท

I usually buy my produce from a street shop near the kid’s school but today I went with my guts to buy at the wet market. 

And I was making a good decision coz I only paid IDR63K – $4.65 for all of those produce. If I bought from the street shop, I know I would’ve spent at least $10. Crazy what this hard situation teach you. It teaches you to go beyond your comfort zone. To push you to do the extraordinary. 

I know that I don’t have anymore budget for fruit but I have to stock on fruits coz my kids need fruits. So I bought a papaya for IDR15K – $1.11.

And my rice box is empty ๐Ÿ˜ฅ I thought I could’ve more money to spend on something else but then I need to stock on rice. Indonesian don’t eat without rice. So ya, I bought 10kg of rice and I have an amazing aunt that give me an extra 10kg for free. Thank you aunty… God bless you ๐Ÿ˜‡

10kg will feed us for about a week and thanks to aunty we will have enough supply for about 2 weeks โœŒ And the rice will stretch for more days coz my cousin just gave us dog food. My dog also eat rice but since now we have dog food. We will have enough supply of rice ๐Ÿ˜. I’m so grateful for families that always support and help me in hard times. 

Today I fry fish and make spinach soup with corn.

I only have enough fish for hub and the kids. I don’t normally eat the fish or the chicken. If I’m lucky, the kids will have some leftovers for me. They usually still have something left for me to eat. Or I’ll just eat rice and whatever veggies I cook that day. 

Well… This is for today. We’ll see what I cook tomorrow. I’m thinking of buying eggs with the money left in the budget. 

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You’re an embarrassment!

“You’re an embarrassment!”

Have you ever heard that pointed at you? Me. A million times. Being an Indonesian, I need to look ‘perfect’. I don’t talk about my difficulties, my sadness, my problems, my insecurities, my honesty. As long as they’re bad, I’m not allowed to talk about it. That triggered me to suicide long time ago. 

I need to look good all the time so I won’t be an embarrassment. I need to put on weight or people will think that my parents don’t feed me enough. I need to put on good clothes or people will think that my parents can’t afford to buy me clothes. I need to be like this or like that, so I don’t embarrass my family. 

I like to share. My happiness or even my sorrow. People have no problem with you sharing your new car, your big house, your new expensive phone, as long as it makes you look good. Maybe that’s why most of the people spend more money to look good when they’re actually is broke. 

But then they’ll look at you like **** (whatever) when you share that you’re broke. They started to talk about you. How you’re such an embarrassment for telling people about your problems. Being honest is now an embarrassment. I see. 

I know that some my (Indonesian) friends are stalking on my Instagram account. They have their pride for not following my account but yet they stalk on me. Hello there! 

I am now challenging myself on a very little budget on food this month. And I’m sharing my journey with the world. And I know they’re now talking about me. Am I an embarrassment? I don’t think so. 

Why the heck do I want to share my embarrassing life? You know what… I’m not the only one who’s struggling financially. If at least I can help 1 person anywhere in the world, to tell them that they’re not fighting alone, that they have to keep the spirit high and not being defeated by they’re lacking, I’m happy. 

Sometimes feeling lonely can really bring you down. It actually not as bad as they thought if they can talk to someone else that can give them a better view of any chaos they are in right now. Sometimes we need someone else to tell us that we are okay. That there’s hope in anything. 

This is what I am into with whatever I am sharing with you now. Not to embarrass anybody. Not to embarrass my family. Not embarrass myself. This is me telling you, that we can work it out. That our situation right now is not permanent. This is just another level of our life that we have to get through. And we have to get through so that we know there’s a brighter future ahead of us. We can’t stop here. We have to move on with whatever left in us. 

Me having so little money to feed my kids may have made you grateful coz you’re having more than me. It makes you feel good that you’re not bad at all. Or maybe you’re like me, so let’s walk the journey together. Let’s make it work. 

If then me or you have some extra money to add on the budget, that’s great. That’s the proof of God’s promise that He will provide. And we can share the good news to the world. That God is a loving Father that WILL NOT leave His children abandoned. God can give you anything you need. Let alone your daily meal. 

So am I an embarrassment? I think not. You may have a different say about me but I’m sharing God’s greatness to the world that even in my lacking, God is loving me. God is taking care of me. That I am doing this as me presenting my gratitude to Him for providing my needs. 

And He will provide you too. 

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Day 1 – November Food Budget Challengeย 

It is day 1! 12 November 2017
I open my fridge and here’s what I got. 

1kg of potatoes, carrots, chicken breast bone (yes only bone. I have about 5 breast bones in the freezer), mushrooms, chili padi. 

And 4 pieces of anchovy (ikan asin dendeng). 

So let’s see what I turn these into.

Chicken soup. 

Sauteed mushrooms with chili padi and lots of garlic.

Potato frittata. I use our last 2 eggs for this.

So, today zero spend. 

It’s Sunday and it’s my stay at home day. The house is in chaos coz I’m still not in my best self. This flu is killing me. It hurts my head, my ears, and my gum. 

Today I’m gonna stay at home, cleaning, and prep for Monday. 

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What to budget when you hardly have an income?

It’s my question for so long. Years. 

When we’re making money, budgeting was out of mind out of sight. When we’re broke, I wanted to start budgeting. Well, I always wanted to start budgeting and always failed. 

Now, what to budget when I hardly have an income? Hmmm… 

When you make so little money, suddenly those bills are so painful. When you make so little money, those little money just went by and then what’s the point of budgeting?

I’ve tried envelopes cash system. I’ve tried no spend week. I’ve tried budgeting for tithing and savings. I’ve tried following Dave Ramsey baby steps. I’ve tried cutting here and there. I’ve tried many tries with very little money. And it’s haaaaaaaaaaaaaard! 

I don’t know when my paycheck is coming in. I don’t know the amount of it when it’s eventually coming in. And when it comes, my bills are all overdue and my fridge is empty. So when it’s payday, it’s also paying day. On top of it, things happen and suddenly everything seems to be broken and needed to be fixed. 

Some months I’m able to budget for tithing but it’ll end up with buying food. Some months I’m able to save but not for long coz something needs some extra money. Some months I don’t even have any money left to budget for food. 

What’s the point of budgeting??? 

Well… I know I have very little money to work on and it’s a headache to work with. But with budgeting I am the boss. I tell my money where to go. I write down every bills I have to pay (again all overdue, well at least I paid), I pay the most urgent bills (the kids school tuition) and electricity. And I work with the leftovers, of course for food. My kids need to eat. Everything else comes later. 

Later means I have to work my ass off to earn some extra money. Literally forcing my brain and body to work extra. 

So, little money or big money, you need to budget. Write down everything. I use paper and excel on my phone. Try your best to post everything in the budget. Pay your priority bills and food, the minimum. Everything else, work harder. Do your part and God will provide.