I haven’t tell you this… I went for a job interview last couple of weeks.
Shocking? Yes! I even shocked at myself.
Me. A stay at home mom by choice went for a job interview 2 hours away from home.
What happen to wanting to be with the kids full time, taking care of the house, to not miss a single moment of motherhood?
Well… Life happens and life is forcing me to go out of the house and earn us some money. Apparently, my VA jobs and online shop is insufficient to pay bills. So… Yeah…
My cousin texted me about a job opening at her office with the job I haven’t quite get the experience on it, but she convinced me that I can do it. Yes, I CAN DO IT!
I’m a strong believer of ‘nothing is impossible’. Anybody can learn their way to something. I had my jobs for not having the experience at first but when my employer hired me, I give my all. I work my way up and I never disappoint.
Life is about learning. There’s not a thing in this life that you can’t accomplish as long as you’re willing to learn how to achieve them and work your way up.
If you find yourself losing faith and motivation to achieve something, maybe that means you don’t want it that bad anyway. Yes, we slack off sometimes, many times, but if we want it bad, we’ll fight our way back until we get want we wanted.
That’s what made me went to the interview. I’ve had my struggle, to stay at home or go out and work. But when I made the first step to be on my way to the office, I had (only) one thing in mind, to be a working mom.
On my way back home after the interview, I didn’t have the feeling of being in any urgency. I mean, I do want to get a job but I also want to be a stay at home mom. Which one is more appealing? At that moment, I really don’t know. I can do my best for both of them.
So what exactly was in my mind? I was in a full surrender mode to God. I surrender. One thing I keep saying in my mind, God has a plan for me and I trust Him. Whether I’ll be a working mom or a stay at home mom, its God’s will. I’ve done my part. I went to the interview and now it’s His part.
I didn’t have the pressure after the interview. No burden whatsoever. I felt relieved. It’s almost like ‘I got the job’ feeling. Like I’ll have no more money problems, which is not true. But that’s exactly how I felt. That’s how you feel when you’re in such faith that your life is in God’s hands.
After some times, I had the news that I didn’t get the job. Was I sad? No! Was I happy? Not quite the right word to describe how I felt, but I was OKAY.
In fact, after I got the news, I feel more alive. I feel more sure of who I am, what I am. I didn’t feel as a failure for not being able to get a job but I feel more confident in doing my part as a stay at home mom.
This is what God wants me to do. For now.
But what about our financial situation? Well… God didn’t give me the job, so I believe He’ll find a way to provide us. Yes I have mountains of bills that I need to get done with, but there will be time for it. Patience is a surrender to God’s timing and control.
I believe, as long as I do my part, God will do His part. Hope is the key to patience.