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Glaring

I’m human. 

Going through many sufferings as you do. We walk a different kind of sufferings yet we’re the same. 

Pain seems to be glaring at us, waiting to get closer, reaching, impatiently approaching. 

Ever wonder why we’re still here? Sometimes on a better path, sometimes we find ourselves back to where we began, sometimes we feel stuck, going nowhere. 

Often times we thought that only death will end all of these pain. But we’re scared of the unsure guarantee in ending this suffocating broken world. 

I’m feeling the exhaustion of living the life of me. Don’t you too? Why after all this time, we still have the faith that we still have God’s mercy? Why suffer when God Himself promised us that He will take care of us? Why do we still hope? So many why’s… 

But because we human, have to be united in mind, sympathy, brotherly love, having a tender heart, and a humble mind. We treat each other as believers since unity and fellowship are going to be the glue that keep us together when time gets rough. 

What He promised, He will fullfil! 

Cast all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you. And after you have suffered a little while, God Himself will restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. 

When you feel the need to give up, trying to put a stop to all of your pain, surround yourself with people in faith, seek God. 

God is everywhere, covers everything in this world. You can find God in YouTube, Twitter, Instagram, blogs, everywhere. God creates all of this greatness of technology, didn’t He? Might as well use it for our good. For our mission in building His Kingdom in this world. 

Believe that what’s broken, already healed through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead. Holding hands, we are the children of God, will live by God’s mercy, standing tall and unshakeable. 

Have faith, keep honoring God, stay grateful, know that you’re not alone. We’re in this together!

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Shimmerย 

I’m no angel.

Not trying to be a saint. 

I’m not rich.

Not trying to be a hero.

But my mind goes disturbed when I know someone needs help. I can’t go blind and deaf. I have to do something or I won’t be able to keep my mind straight. 

My brain hurts thinking a way to help. And it even hurt more when I still need to think about my own problem ๐Ÿ˜จ 

Why do I have to put myself in such craziness like I’m not crazy enough trying to fix my own life? 

I have no idea. 

I know someone needs help with school. I can’t help much coz I myself incapable of fulfilling my kid’s school issues. But I can’t just ignore. I started texting my friends and family if they could help. I wasn’t expecting much but just pray for the best. 

And I have the most incredible friends and family. They helped! I’m so blessed that I’m surrounded by lovely people. 

Some of you might be thinking, why not asked them to help me? Why bother about someone else when I myself could use some help? 

I surrender myself to God. God knows what I need and He will provide. As that person needs help and pray to God, God answers through me and through my friends and family. What about my prayers? I have faith that God will provide through someone else. 

It’s the circle of life. It’s how we become a blessing to someone’s life. Believe that God will send help and fulfill His promise on His way. Forget about trying to fight the battle alone. God wants to be involved in your life. 

Have faith that everything you do, you’re doing it in the name of God. 

If we could be the shimmer in someone’s life… May our lives be lightened by God’s greatness. 

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The Revelation

I’m torn between two edges of propositions. Afraid if I’m incapable of supplying the demands, the needs. It should’ve been easier if I’m fully in control, but I’m not. 

What’s the point of your existence when you don’t present? What’s all the words when you don’t act likewise? 

No one really care when me or my life are laying around in ruins. But the minute that I start to rebuild, the minute I start to make progress in my life, all of a sudden everybody got an opinion. 

Whenever I try and do good, I’ve always been faced with opposition, rejection, humiliation. My intention have always been sidetracked by negativity. No good whatsoever. 

Should I stop? Quit trying? Often times the answer is obvious. But that’s not what God wants me to do. 

In order to do the difficult and even controversial, we have to be willing to work with our weapon in hand. 

When hateful words are thrown our way, we can replace those words in our mind and heart with God’s truth. 

We protect ourselves with God’s words. 

Yes, it’s hard and need a lot of work. But I’ll keep my faith that God is holding my hands and fight this together. 

Till the time comes. The revelation. 

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We can change!ย 

Often we find ourselves crying alone. No one seems to care. Everybody is busy with themselves. Everyone is struggling their own struggle that caring for others is the last thing in their mind. 

Why are they so careless? Don’t they have heart? They do. It’s just that they’re having the same issue with people I just described above. 

It’s a circle of life. Karma-like. Pay it forward schemes-like. 

Do you ever feel that your family and friends are staying away from you when you’re in disadvantage? Yet they’re all seem so eager to get close to you when you’re loaded? Yeah… 

I think it’s natural. If you really dig deep, you’ll find yourself had done it, on purpose or not. Still… We all have it. 

I find so many Christian beautifully covered in the word of God, yet their inside is as rotten as the devil’s heart. Coz we’re human. This might harsh, but yes, we’re human and we’re selfish. 

That is why we need to keep reminding ourselves, that we are way better than a selfish prick. We are willing to work on what’s God wants us to be. We are willing to change. 

We want to be the type of people who out of fear and reference for God, will live and lead with love and kindness and goodness towards every person we come across. 

It doesn’t have to be money matters, but if we just care and help with what we could give, the heart that matters. 

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The Temptation

I have some bitterness in my heart. Have to struggle with it every single day. Facing it every single second. 

So many times I want to give up to the temptation of anger. Just wanted to let everything out. Making a scene. Saying things that I’ve been keeping for so many years, for the sake of peace. 

The peace I’ve been trying to keep, starting to burst. The wall I’ve been trying to build, starting to crumble. The war between myself and the temptation to give up is something I can’t win by my own power. 

God is asking me to take care of the kids. I won’t be able to fulfill that if I surrender to the invitation of self satisfaction of breaking free. 

My hands are needed to work on God’s mission in my life. Even sometimes my hands are hurt, swelling, feels like resting. But I can’t stop. I need to go on. 

The work that God wants me to do, doesn’t have to stop just because temptation of giving up comes knocking over and over again. 

Freedom is something I’ve been wanting so desperately. But my children needs me more than anything else in this world. It’s the reason I exist. It’s why God created me in the first place. 

Though freedom can really really really bring happiness to my life again, the happiness of my children is the core essence of myself. 

I will continue to work while I battle coz “Now God, strengthen my hands”.